The Grande Finale of the dreams about her...

Dream: Calmness.

I was sitting on the floor, on a round rug with Irina, facing each other. She was wearing that green sweater of hers and some pants, her blondish hair was open and resting on her shoulders. It felt like she was a guest at our house, like she had been there for hours, maybe days. She was just smiling with her white teeth showing. We swung a bit on the floor. My mother occasionally came upstairs to say something to us both.

I went to the bathroom next to my room to get something from some closet with white sliding wooden doors. The small room looked like the real-life one, white wallpaper, toilet seat, mirror and a sink. I stripped off my clothes because I needed more room. I held a small bundle of greaseproof paper found in the kitchen in my hands for some reason. She suddenly appeared there - I moved the paper to cover my privates. She hugged me. I resisted and I was just "Whoa... what...?", amazed. She hugged me again with a smile on her face. She tried one more time but I made some effort to evade it; I didn't want her to hug me.

Later I was back in the first room. I was wondering where she had went so I went downstairs, then turned to left to the kitchen where my mother was baking something, cookies maybe. I asked her if would know where Irina had gone. The answer I received was that she had gone to some summer camp-lodge with my grandmother.

It was midsummer and I finally reached the cottage after some walking distances along some forest path. It was a true Finnish summer: blue waters, tall pine trees next to the rocky beach, needles of fir fallen from the trees covering up all the ground, all of it, making it look brown.

I went closer to the lake and then I started vividly explaining my mother Eila why a skydiver should open his/her parachute right after leaving the plane.

Next I was jumping off from a small white propelled airplane that was flying over the lake. I saw this from a 3rd person view. The plane flew almost on the ground level, right above the water surface, I jumped off and my body created a huge splash!

Then I was again in an/the airplane. This time it was above clouds. It was flying pretty slow for an air plane, but the clouds were moving fast below me. I wasn't alone, there was some other skydiver, some middle aged man with short light brown hair who jumped with me, right next to me. This was high enough so we didn't splash to the water right away. While we were closing the surface he opened his parachute but so did I. And there we had a nice knot. We yelled as the wind currents flew us almost horizontally on the water surface. Then we crashed into some rocks.

Analysis:

This was brave, I know. But it's what I remember. Well, you all readers should know that strong emotions in real life make you dream about it. Despite the title, I'm sure I'll have dreams about her in the future whether I wanted it or not. Perhaps this dream amognst others are more likely showing me variations of my own visions, perhaps, I just love to see her laughing and smiling.

Skydiving, easily explained: I'm so much waiting for a new season to start, quit, winter, already!!